With Proper Training…

Back in Nov/Dec I started “Team Phill”. What exactly is “Team Phill”? Well it was a brief (as in time of existence) wiki that I created to act as a central repository for my team (Yaeka, Amy, & Doug – although Yaeka was the only contributor) to list various job listings that may be of interest to me; this is why I had that whole “I’m doing this secret stuff” moment on my blog back then. Anyway, I still don’t have a new job, but decided that I might as well just post out in the open about things and if my boss finds my blog and learns of my ongoing “mission”, I figure it will just help facilitate some communication since I still act in an ultra-passive-aggressive manner.

So why so bad for Team Phill? Well as mentioned, I don’t have a new job. First, I should admit that I honestly didn’t try that hard; I did in the beginning when I was pretty upset with certain situations, but as I cooled off, so did my effort. I submitted my resume to about 7 or 8 postings (Craigslist acted as my main source) and only managed to get one response and this was from a hiring agency that had pretty much already filled the position and probably just wanted to add some more candidates to their pool or resources. I did eventually get a direct interview with the company, but shrugged off what could have been a job offer after deciding it wasn’t “right” for me.

That’s the background on where I am at now. I recently read a blog article titled How To Suck and Still Be On Top on the Life Coaches Blog and after telling Yaeka about it, she really nailed down my problem. I’ve been full of excuses/reasons why I should remain at my current position mostly out of a fear of change/uncercetainty/risk and even more because I am comfortable where I am at knowing that it would be really hard to fail. Going somewhere else with different rules and challenges leaves an enormous chance of failure. I know that I would be able to adapt and learn in most new situations, but still avoid even applying to places instead choosing to label myself as “underqualified”.

The ante has raised somewhat with Yaeka and I planning to purchase a home in the near future and even though I still carry the same doubts, I am moving into action. Last week Yaeka purchased a copy of What Color Is Your Parachute? for me and I promised to try and work through it at least 30 minutes a day. I plan on sharing what I learn from the book in future postings as a way of sharing what I hope will be a significant personal development.

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